026.

I meant to write this post on Wednesday, but I guess I just never got around to it. Wednesday was Glen and I's month-versary. We didn't get to do anything special. He did buy me some lemon-flavored icing covered sugar cookies though. They're alright... I mean they're not terrible; I'm just not a big fan of lemon-flavored icing. Have I mentioned that I love that man? ... I think I have. I just thought I'd say it again though.

He just makes me so happy... And he truly does support me. Tonight ended up being one of the worst nights of my life. My mother's car was broken into, and her purse, wallet, credit cards, etc. were stolen. In her wallet were also social security cards,  insurance cards, cash, checks, and of course her driver's license. Today, I took her to the bank to close her checking accounts. I also scheduled an appointment with an autoglass company to come fix her window.

In a few, I'm taking my brother to this eye care place near us to have his prescription placed. Then, I'm going to ask them about contacts, etc. I really hope that my insurance covers the exam fee. If not, Idk what I'm gonna do about paying for it. I really want contacts... Whyy? Idk. I just figured since I'm getting older, I should try something new. I still love wearing glasses though. My glasses will forever be a huge part of my self-image.

I'm still sick as hell... My nose is running like a track star, and I just can't catch it! Corny as hell... I know. Tonight, I'm babysitting for the neighbors again. I made $50 last weekend... I wonder how much I'll make tonight. Umm... I'm about to go online and order a new license for my mom. Then... Idk what I'm gonna do. I NEED to be doing this WORK I'm missing in my classes. I'm doing so poorly. -_- I'm failing both AP Lit and AP Calculus right now, all because I haven't been turning in my work. Shame, shame, shame... I'm the A student. I just have REALLY BAD senior itis right now...

025.

... YUPP! I MADE IT! ^_^ The audition itself wasn't as nerve wrecking as I thought it would be. It was more so the whole waiting process... the time I spent waiting to hear when it was my turn to go in. I was really excited when I found out that I made it. They're not supposed to tell you immediately whether or not you made the audition. They're supposed to let you know in a letter. The guy loved me so much, he was like "We would LOVE to have you on our drumline." It made me really happy... so happy that I forgot about everything else for a while. I think I left my coat there in one of their practice rooms... =/ I'll never see that coat again.

On Monday, they're sending me a letter that officially states that I've made the marching band. Hopefully, it will include the summer practice dates for the drumline/percussion. I'm really excited now. I just hope that the band budget isn't a whole bunch of money. If it is, I might end up using my extra scholarship/grant money and shit to pay for it... Idk yet. The thing I'm really gonna need to adjust to is the color orange. I despise that color with a passion. It's just so... Idk, ugly. Glen and I went into this big UT athletic apparel store today, and I almost freaked out. There was just orange EVERYWHERE!

But yeaa... Other than that loverly accomplishment, I drove over 100 miles today on the way back from Knoxville. Once we hit the "68 miles to Nashville" point, I let Glen drive again. I didn't wanna drive the whole way... 100 miles was enough for me, lol. I'm glad I got a little practice in though. I have to drive out there all by myself in June when I go to my summer orientation. I admit... I'm scared as hell, cause I don't think I'll be able to stay awake. I need to do something with this sleeping problem of mine.

024.

DEAR VALENTINE'S DAY...

First of all, I would like to thank you for finally coming around. I've never had a Valentine before, and I've never celebrated Valentine's Day before. Because of this, I'm a little, scratch that, EXTREMELY ignorant to what it's all about and how you're supposed to celebrate it. Nevertheless, the time I spent with my boyfriend yesterday was beyond amazing.

We started off the day by going to church. Yeaa, we got there late, but we still went. At the end of the youth service, I asked him to pray with me in the main sanctuary. I felt like I needed it. Of course, I prayed to myself... and someone else even came to pray with me, but I was glad that he actually went up to the alter. After church, we took his cousin to his father's house. Then, we hit up CityTrends and TJ Maxx so I could find some clothes. I bought a dress for graduation from CityTrends, and I found a cute dress for prom at TJ Maxx. It's purple, and it cost $20.00. BARGAIN! After the shopping, we went to Shoney's to eat. We were gonna go to O'Charley's, but we decided that we wanted to get fat. After eating an ass-load of food, we went back to the house & chilled for the rest of the night.

I didn't get home until around 2:00 something in the morning... Whyy? Because I fell asleep in his arms around 10:30 PM and didn't wake up until around 1:00 AM. I set the alarm for 1:30 AM and went back to sleep. By the time 1:30 came around, he said I needed to get up, so he could take me home. He didn't want me to get in trouble. I would've spent the night, but I didn't wanna hear anyone's mouth. One of these days though... One of these days I plan on sleeping in his arms all night and not having to wake up until later in the morning.

I love our relationship. I love how everything doesn't have to be serious all the time. I love how we can go from being lovey dovey to joking and kidding around. I love how he can be both my friend and my boyfriend at the same time. I love that whenever I'm with him, he devotes all of his time and his attention to me and nothing else. I love that I can come over his house and do nothing but study. I love how he's pushing me to do my work and how he really wants me to succeed. I love many things about him... I love him. Some people may feel as if it's too soon to judge whether or not I love him, but I know that I do.

I love him for being in my life. I love him for being a good friend. I love him for loving me as I am. I love him for not trying to change me. I love him for bringing out the best in me. I love him for allowing me to be myself when I'm around him. I love him for showering me with just the right amount of affection. I love him for not overdoing it. I love him for always wanting to make me happy. I love him for making me smile at all hours of the night. I love him for hugging me and holding me even when I'm mad at him. I love him for not allowing me to stay upset. I love him for just being there.

Damn it, I just love him.

So yeaa... Thanks again, Valentine's Day. I hope you're even better next year. :]

Sincerely, with all of my love,

Jennifer Nguyen

023.

So spending every single day of the week with my boyfriend has been amazing... As I've said before, I never want to leave when I'm around him. Last night, we took a 30 minute nap together in each other arms. It was wonderful. If it wasn't hitting midnight, and I didn't have to go home eventually, I would've spent the night there and just went home in the morning. Hmm... I'm thinking about doing that tomorrow for Valentine's Day. You know, ask my mama if I can stay at a friend's house and then, stay at his house instead. We don't have school Monday, so there shouldn't be a problem.

Anywho... I've been falling so behind in some of my classes; mainly the AP ones. I haven't done some of the papers that were due in AP Lit... I haven't really been doing my calculus homework... AP Gov't is just lame... Ughh. Idk what I'm doing with my life right now. Ohh, and not to mention that I've been slacking in my online college course with Nashville State Community College. Yeaa... I really need to get myself together. Glen says that I need to "get on my shit." I agree with him and everything, but UGHH... It's just so hard. Nowadays, I just don't wanna do ANYTHING, ya'know? I just wanna sleep. -_-

Valentine's Day is coming up, and Glen and I have some things planned. In the morning, we're going to church together. Later on in the evening/night, we're going to see a movie and going out to eat. Where? I would like Red Lobster, but money is kinda tight, so... I think we're going to O'Charley's. Which is perfectly FINE! ... cause I've never been there before. I know, I know. WHAAAT?! JENNIFER, YOU'VE NEVER BEEN TO O'CHARLEY'S?! WHAAAT?! That's the reaction I usually get when I tell people that, lol. It's not my fault though... My family never goes out to eat.

I was looking at their menus and stuff online and looking at the location maps, and I thought it was funny how there are only O'Charley's chain locations on the east side of the country. They don't have it all the way on the east coast, but it's restricted to like... Hold on, lemme find it. Ok, here it goes... Wisconsin, Michigan, Illinois, Indiana, Ohio, Pennsylvania, Missouri, Virgina, West Virginia, Kentucky, North Carolina, South Carolina, Tennessee, Arkansas, Louisiana, Mississippi, Alabama, Georgia, and Florida. Yeaa... Lol. It's regionalized.

That's about all I have to say for right now, though... Tonight is the first school dance at Glencliff High School in over a decade, and I'm NOT going to be there. Whyy? I just don't feel like dancing. I donated my money to the fees though, cause well... I'm a part of United Nations and we're the sponsors of the dance. What would it look like if I didn't support my own group's activity? I plan on spending my valuable time with Glen baking that Valentine's cake that we were supposed to bake yesterday, lol. He got me some Valentine's icing, so I'm gonna have fun playing with the sprinkles and stuff.

... P.S. I love you.

022.

"He came into my life and swept me off my feet

Gave me a couple kisses and took the best of me

Every time I'm with him, I lose all track of time

And I'm genuinely thankful to say that he is mine

Forever in his arms is where I plan to stay

I know I'll miss him dearly when I move away

But he'll always be with me, like he was right from the start

Cause no matter how far I go, he'll always have my heart"

...

WHO DAT?!

... We told 'em them Saints was gon' win.

020.

This is my current dilemma...

I'm cutting myself off from the physical attention and adoration. I'm cutting myself off from the physical affection and all of that lovey dovey, mushy gushy mess. Whyy? Because Idk when to stop. Idk how to say "no." I'm beginning to get attached, and I don't want that. When I become attached, it's hard for me to let go... not that I want to let him go; I'm just saying. I don't wanna be the couple who just gets physical every time we're together... I don't want our relationship to be revolved around kissing or  hugging or any of that. I just wanna chill now... and I know that's gonna be extremely hard for me; especially because I'm a ridiculously affectionate person.

I must work...

019.

Lately, I've just been extremely tired. I don't have the enthusiasm to do anything anymore... like my homework. I'm on some serious senior-itis right now. I need to get myself together... if I expect to graduate with the GPA I currently have or an even higher one. Right now, I'm in my MedPrep meeting. We're talking about interviewing and stuff like that... I'm so tired and unenthusiastic right now, I'm not even answering the questions right. I'm just talking and talking and talking... They even caught me in one of my many contradictions. -_-

Things between Glen and I are going well. Right now, I can't imagine myself with anyone else. He truly represents the missing link that I've been yearning for in my life. Every minute I spend with him is an amazing one. He makes me feel comfortable, he makes me feel safe, he makes me feel whole. I can honestly say that I can't stand being away from him. If it were up to me, I would never leave. I would stay with him all night and just sleep with him in his arms. Too bad I can't have everything my way...

018.

I spent the day with my boyfriend... I love spending time with him. When I'm with him, I lose all track of time, and I never want to leave. Sometimes I wish time would stop... just while I was with him. Then, I wouldn't have to worry about coming home past curfew or anything. I'm starting to get tired of always leaving him. I wish I could just stay the night.