Honestly... I don't think I can even write this letter. I don't know who the person I hate the most is, nor do I know who caused me the most pain. I'll give it some thought...
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Day 11: A deceased person you wish you could talk to.
Dear Grandma and Grandpa,
I don't even know who you are... Neither does my mommy. We've never met you, and as far as we know, you're both dead. Granny, I know mommy said there's a chance that you might still be alive out there somewhere... And she's been looking for you. She really has. *sigh* I've always been a little jealous of all of my friends who have/had their grandparents in their lives. All the memories they made, all the things they learned, all the love that was shared... Yea, I don't have any of that. I could never say "Ohh, I'm going to my granny's house." or "Ohh, my granny/granddaddy bought me that." It really hurts... It really hurts that I know absolutely NOTHING about where I came from. When I have kids, and they ask me about our family history, all I can say to them is "I don't know, baby... I don't know my family. Don't be discouraged though, because you know yours." I don't like this at all. I really wish you would have been in my mama's life... I really wish you would've been in my life. I really wish you would've been there the day I was born, to watch me grow, to watch me learn, to share all of my most important memories with me... You weren't there for any of my birthdays, and here I am, approaching 18. You weren't there for my high school graduation -- the highlight of my life. I really wish you knew the things I have had to live through... I really wish you knew how incredibly successful I am. I really wish you could be proud of all of my accomplishments and all of the growth I have made. I just really wish you knew... As much as I wanna say it, I can't even say that I love you... I don't even know you. You have been nothing more than a spoken concept, an idea. I know nothing about you... Neither do my parents. And that sucks... Really bad. Wherever you are, I just hope that you're proud of me... Cause that's all I ever want you to be.
Love always,
Your inexistant granddaughter
Monday, June 28, 2010
Day 10: Someone you don't talk to as much as you'd like to.
I can't single out any specific person. I don't talk to a lot of people that I used to be incredibly close with. To name just one would be... I don't know. I forgot the word for it. I guess over the years, I've just grown tired of always keeping in touch with people. It's not that I don't love them anymore... We've just all moved on with our lives. We're doing bigger and better things (well, someone of us)... We have different interests, different passions, different lives. I'm not gonna say that I regret losing touch with these people... I'm just gonna say that it would be nice to know how they are doing from time to time. As for the ones that I don't talk to anymore intentionally, well, what can I say? I don't speak for a reason.
Always,
Jennifer
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Day 9: Someone you wished you could meet.
Dear (insert random celebrity here),
You seem pretty cool... It would be nice if I met you. We could like, share ideas and take lots of pictures together. We could even have meaningful conversations about our interests, passions, and dreams. Yeaa... That would be pretty awesome. My friends would definitely be jealous.
Forever delighted,
Jennifer
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