Day 16: Someone who's not in your state/country.

Dear former B5 fanatics from 2005,

I would like to meet ALL of you, minus Shakiraa. I already met her. :] You guys made quite a few of my summers, and I'm surprised that most of us kept in touch! I love all of you.

Sincerely yours,

Jennifer

Holiday World.

I was definitely at Holiday World all day yesterday... I didn't get home until 2:00 AM today. I missed my Day 16 post. :/ I'll write it along with Day 17 and post them both... NO WORRIES! I'll also be back later to write about the trip and what not.

Day 15: The person you miss the most.

Dear (person I choose not to name),

You used to be my best friend... I cared about you a lot. We talked on the phone every night... I told you everything. You told me everything. We cried together (sort of). I loved you with all of my heart. I never thought I would lose you. And then... And then, I introduced you to the love of your life. My life changed at that very moment. You grew even more distant as your relationship with her grew stronger and stronger. And then... I never saw you again. She decided to put me out of the picture. She decided not to let me speak to you anymore... I still can't believe you chose her over me... but whatever. I miss you a lot... I still miss you to this day. I remember when you called me earlier this year... I cried my butt off. I never heard from you again after that. What the fuck happened? How did I let you disappear from my life that easily? What did I do? Why did I have to be sooo damn stupid?! -_- *sigh* I still blame myself... I wish you would come back. I wish we would be friends again. I miss you...

Love always,

Jenny

Day 14: Someone you've drifted away from.

Dear Joshua,

You've been my best friend since freshman year... Remember how we used to always be together? I'm talking about we walked to class together, we ate lunch together... Anytime you saw one person, you were guaranteed to see the other. People thought we were going together, lol... and they still do. -_- Anyway, remember how we used to be like the ONLY kids still at the school at 9:00 PM? We used to walk around the building and sing Chris Brown songs, lol. Remember how we used to talk on the phone for hours every single night? We'd have late night karaoke and sing Boyz II Men and other stuff like that. I miss those times... We barely talk on the phone anymore, and I guess I'm the one to blame. I just don't call anymore... However, we do still text and see each other, and that's a good thing. Hell, you're going with me to Holiday World this weekend! We're going to have sooo much fun, best friend. You know I love you a whole, whole lot... and I always will. And you know there will always be a special place in my heart for you. Ooh! Remember how you used to have a hard time telling me you loved me? I would be like "I love you, best friend." and you would be like "... Ditto." It was hilarious... and it hurt a little bit, but at the end of the day, I knew you loved me. Now, you're not afraid to say it anymore, and that makes me sooo freaking happy. Like, you just don't know. Remember all the super long hugs we used to give each other? And how we would randomly hold hands and walk down the hallways? Haha... I'm starting to see why people thought we went out. Ohh, and when I used to poke you in the back of the neck with an eraser freshman year in Ms. Hamby's World History Honors class, haha... Good times, good times. Every moment we've shared has been a good time... Like the Batman cupcakes I bought you for your 17th birthday, haha. I remember when I took you as one my dates to the military ball sophomore year... and you had to take me home. I made friends with your nephews, lol. They were cute... I still remember how extra ticklish you are and all of our silly inside jokes. Gahh, I miss you already, and I'm gonna see you in 24 hours. That's crazy... Anyway, I trust you with everything... And I am really going to miss you when I go to college. The reason I'm writing this letter to you is because all year, I've felt as if we have been drifting apart... And once again, I guess I'm to blame for that. I just don't live close enough for us to hang out all the time... And sometimes, well, all the time, I felt as if you had replaced me with everyone else... All the other people you were always hanging out with. It's ok though... I know you never meant for me to feel that way. Your voice: "I mean... if that's how you feel." LOL! I used to HATE when you would say that... But I guess I'm gonna end this here, BEAST. I hope we never grow apart and that we only get closer for the rest of our lives...

Love always,

Your Best Friend, Food Head

Day 13: Someone you wish could forgive you.

This goes to the person whom I may have hurt the most:

I'm sorry for whatever it is I did to hurt you... Obviously, I don't remember what that was anymore, because I have moved on with my life. But if for some reason you're still holding onto that... I hope you can learn to let it go and forgive me, as I have learned to forgive myself. I have learned that throughout life, people will make millions and millions of mistakes -- both big and small. Nobody's perfect. What I did may have been what I felt was appropriate at the time, but understand that I was a young and foolish girl then. I am now, more mature, and I'm learning new things and adjusting my personality and my lifestyle every day in order to meet them. If you aren't in my life right now, maybe one day, we can resolve the issue and become acquainted again. Who knows where our paths will take us...

Sincerely,

Jennifer